Feeling social

I'm an introvert. I get my energy from being on my own and spending time with myself. I have a pet awkward turtle that likes to come out and take over during social interactions, especially with people that I don't know very well. I do love spending time with the people I love and having a laugh with the people who know me better than anyone else. I love it but its tiring for me and its even worse when they're people I don't know and the dialogue is full of . One of the things that has scared me most of all about this move to uni is trying to forge new friendships and meet like minded people who will understand me as well as my current friends do.

Every so often, however, I get these urges to get to know more people. I want to have that feeling where you're just getting to know someone you really feel like you connect with and start to forge a friendship. I miss that happy feeling when you think you've found someone who can become a great friend. Recently, I've been craving that feeling more often than I'm used to and I'm glad. This feeling is what will help give me the courage to go out during freshers week and talk to people, try to find new friends. Its what I will use to drive me to try harder to hold conversations with people. I will be able to use this feeling for the first time since I've been able to identify it.

I've finally found some of my flatmates and talking to them on facebook has felt good for the most part. Slowly getting to know them before we move in has fulfilled my craving a bit and its making me a lot happier about moving. I genuinely enjoyed sending a big long essay of a message to one of my wonderful friends I just met this summer and I am looking forward to a reply because I just can't wait to get to know her better. So far, I've only been able to channel this energy I have into online friendships which are really great and amazing but just not the same as real life, face to face relationships. I'll be able to get some work in channelling it in the real world once I'm at university and hopefully it'll help me grow into a better person.

This feeling has made me a lot more excited about going away to uni. I know it will still be very hard to say goodbye to my town and my mum but I'm ready to branch out on my own and start a new, exciting and different life. Its coming whether I like it or not, I might as well get excited about it!